Excruciating Suffering: My Battle Against the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a intense pain bloomed behind my right eye. Then came rapid shocks, like lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with increased force. Four times that day I left a colleague with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared frequently that autumn, and again in spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition typically start with intense discomfort around a single eye that lasts up to several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and men are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches usually begin with abrupt, excruciating agony focused on a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the severity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the number fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, 74, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, like many triggers, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Support finally came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan life around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical medical records suggest unusual remedies for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by global headache committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key artery which delivers blood to the brain. Leading experts in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the results of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician researched his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary head pain conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough history is essential: on which side do symptoms appear? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack passed.

National guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the bouts of some people.

But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the bout dictates the approach.” Brief cycles with infrequent episodes are handled with abortive treatment only. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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